AGGH!!!

Ok i thought i'd been quite calm so far - immersed myself in just working 6 days a week to get as much money as possible and pay off all these huge debts and pretty much just sleeping the rest of the time (or having plenty of beer/watching movies! lol). But SUDDENLY this morning something hit me - can't be sure why but suddenly I'm having a minor freak out about results! I guess now i got paid for October it's starting to sink in, next pay day i will know results PLUS results day is starting to come into my 'planned out radar' - i only really plan ahead a few weeks at a time mostly! SO now there is issues - everything turns on the result - if i fail im gonna throw myself into studying from early on and stop doing anything else until the exam to ensure i get it 2nd time. If i pass then i will keep working but then have to throw myself into trying to get a job - either way i will be throwing myself somewhere and not feeling all that awake/strong right now!